Untitled🤷

You see, where I’m from you’re either the best or you’re not it.

It didn’t matter if you were the Best in English in your class if you weren’t the overall Best in the class.

I wrote a major exam once and I passed, considering the circumstances surrounding which I wrote the exam, I’d say I did pretty good. I was proud of myself, I thought I’d done a good job.

But I wasn’t met with the same excitement. It was just a content smile here and there and I felt underappreciated cos I knew others who had performed less than I did and they were commended.

So I said, “you know, in some other people’s houses, if they scored as high as I did, they’d be celebrating by now.”

And the response I got was, “we’re not other people.”

It stung, a lot….😂

More so because when I failed a major exam once (and by fail, I mean I had an average score), it was all I heard for weeks. It made me wonder, Why couldn’t my successes be spoken about like my failures?

Why was it that when I didn’t do a good job was spoken about a lot more than when I did a good job?

And I think it conditioned me to shine the light on my shortcomings while my strengths remain in the dark. Because somewhere in the recess of my mind, my failures deserve more attention than my triumphs.

I find myself disregarding small wins and focusing on the tiniest little mistakes, dwelling on what I’d done wrong rather than what I’d done right because that was what was constantly being shoved in my face.

Now, your story may not fall along these lines but we might have similar endings.

You have friends, don’t you?
Think of a friend you love so much.
Are you there?
Imagine he/she made a little mistake, would you constantly dwell on that?
So why can’t you afford the same kindness you express to other people to yourself?

If you can beat yourself up over a tiny mistake, why can’t you celebrate a small achievement?

It’s December.

And yes, I know some of us are already outlining the stuff we have or haven’t achieved this year.

But while you do that, remember that we are to learn from mistakes and not place our entire worth on them.

Nobody likes failure.

Or do you?

I know I don’t.

I like the satisfaction of ticking a goal off my list.

But the thought of failing at something I’d already set out to achieve? Nahh😩

But we keep pushing..

I keep trying because I can’t not try. 🙂

I can’t not try.🙂

Not trying feels even worse than failure for me….

So I didn’t know what to title this post😂😂😂

That’s why you see “Untitled” 😂😂

But if you by chance have any ideas on a suitable title for this post, it would be very much appreciated 🥺

Happy new month 🤸🤸🤸